Read Jacki's story of how God set her free from drug and alcohol addiction, then gently healed her of shame, self-hatred, false identity and condemnation ..............
I had been enslaved in many areas of my life through my own sin, generational curses, rebellion and unforgiveness. As a teenager I lost my mind, ended up broken and addicted to alcohol and then later on to methamphetamine.
Throughout it all, God miraculously kept me alive and by His mercy I encountered Jesus twenty years ago and was instantly set free from my need to find comfort in drugs. However, it took a further 16 years to be willing to let go and begin to face the trauma that I had buried, put a lid on and declared it was a ‘no go zone.’ I had been in survival mode for so long and my coping strategy was that I ‘just moved on.’ Being free from addiction I had comforted myself; my past was all behind me and didn’t need to be unpacked or dredged up, I just needed to keep moving forward.
But in 2019 I came to the end of myself with a debilitating and serious health condition. As I sought God for healing, He revealed trauma was at the root. He revealed He was going to ‘reset’ me but it would be a process and I needed to trust Him.
I had coped for so long perfecting ‘mask wearing’ to the point where I had even lost who I was. Bitter roots, crippling shame, self-hatred, false identity, guilt, condemnation....were all masked over with an appearance of cheerful Christianity, hiding the wounds and sins of the past I was not able to face. I was absolutely terrified…but I gave it to Him and began the slow and very intense yet freeing journey through a deep dark valley, only made possible through my relationship with Jesus, my Shepherd, who is with me.
Over the past 5 years repentance, naming the sins, forgiveness, learning to renew the mind, has all been woven into my healing and restoration journey and the ministry from Freedom and Fire is so in line with this. It’s been like a deep clean, finding anything that has been missed, that God led me to as He knew I was ready.
The Freedom and Fire Team ministered love and acceptance to me as personal details of a very broken history were disclosed and past sins, especially self-hatred curses, renounced. Renouncing Free Masonry curses, closing the door on soul ties and receiving deliverance from rejection has made a marked difference in my day-to-day life.
I am able to get into agreement with God’s word and acceptance of me quickly without opposition, I am noticing familiar lines of intimidation and oppression no longer have the same power over me. I have also found more freedom in my love and compassion for others, noticeably those closest to me, there has been an unlocking and releasing where I have been bound. It is like I have had a deep spiritual cleanse that has closed the door on the past and has given me more freedom to be who God has called me to be.
Hebrews 12:1-2 “Therefore then, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us strip off every encumbrance and that sin which so readily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the appointed race set before us. Looking away to Jesus, Who is the Author and Finisher of our faith…”
I am so blessed and grateful for Freedom and Fire, Jesus is at the centre, and His power to break chains and set prisoners free is released to change lives and usher in His life and healing. All glory to Jesus and thank you so much ladies and prayer ministry team for your faithfulness.